i hate people!

I HATE PEOPLE! SO MUCH!!! FARK!!! 

I stayed behind at school for a bitch session with my friend and i have come to realise that some people from my family are screwed in the head > i know its not nice but FARK they make me hate people!

How insane is it when you have relatives who think they're so much better than others when they're just shytehouse stupid and up themselves (not naming them) and they think they're all that... BITCH IF YOU'RE SO RICH MOVE TO ENGLAND AND BUY A CASTLE TO LIVE IN! and if you're so smart farking get 3 phd's at harvard; one for law, one for med and one for rocket science coz they shyte is hard.... but no you're right... you're sooooo much better than all of us coz... you can insult other people's kids behind their backs just coz you can't take them being smarter, more hardworking than your own kids.

And OMG what are you meant to do when your own parent is a complete dick to you? I've wanted to move out so many times and i hate giving other people shyte bc someone makes me want to stay out late and never go home. 

And i friggen hate two faced people (hmm maybe i hate myself a little when i bitch about people and not to their faces but that's just venting) "OMG you're soooooo pretty and you're sooo funny... you're my best friend...!!!" "oh yeah... omg... amy? that ugly bitch..."  < haha.... no one actually said that i was just giving an example ;) my friends aren't nasty just that sometimes it makes me wonder; we bitch about each other all the time and even though occassionally we crack it at eachother, tell eachother what we really think in times when our subconsious thoughts leak out like a slurred nightmare, do we ever stop to wonder hang on... if they're bitching to me about this person, they could be bitching about me to the person we're currently bitching about; so stupid people i'm telling you: money doesn't make the world go round; gossip does, bitching does, clawing eachother's eyes out does. 

I hate that thre's so much hate around me but sometimes i just lose it.... i feel really bad after i've calmed down and i wanna say sorry to the people who had to witness my rage and loss of self control on my ongoing unlady-like rant about how much of a dousche someone is. how embarassing, letting yourself go to the wrong person and scaring them away for life... 

haha someone told me the other day that i was obnoxious... and damn it never occurred to me and i dunno if im ok with that but i guess i am and not much can change... sighs....

i also hate the people who won't pay me! they owe me more than 1 month's salary and won't pay me until another 2 weeks; what kind of rubbish is that? I called in 3 weeks ago and they said that i would get it by this week > so i go to their office today and said that i needed to hand in my contract earlier and that now i have to wait another 2 weeks. I NEED MONEY TO EAT!!! I WANT TO EAT!!!! WHY WONT THEY LET ME EAAAATTTT???!?!?!??!?!?! I am SO angry today...

But i feel bad coz i stormed off and the girl working there was actually really nice; it was just the other older asian lady that i didn't like the look of; giving me the whole: no you have to wait another 2 weeks because you didn't do the contract until last friday: BITCH I SIGNED IT ON THURSDAY! and the other chick came and got it off me personally ON THURSDAY! and besides; isn't it your responsibility to inform us if we haven't signed our contract? like ffs like it wouldn't bother you if you didn't get paid for over a month WTF! I BET YOU WOULD WADDLE YOUR FAT ASS INTO THE OFFICE AND DEMAND A PAYmeNT and if they didn't pay you, you would friggen eat their desk and then the person! > ok that was mean but it had to be let out... or else i'll accidentally spill it like blood over my email to my co-ordinator when i email her about school work... 

OH here's something... i had a meeting today with my project leaders and the leader of the other project was a dickhead you could say mildly but he's a surgeon so he thinks that makes him the expert of everything even on the project that my co-ord has designed, investigated and lead for like the past i don't know how many years; when she wrecked the old guy all he could say was: oh i guess... yeah...JUST ADMIT THAT YOU'RE WRONG WhICH IS WHAT YOU ARE coz you don't know jack shyte about other people's project, because whilst i wouldn't argue with you about lung surgery, im sure my advisor knows more about my project in the brain more than you can comprehend. and all the while he was going: "aren't you making too many assumptions?" UH NO? aren't you being way over your head in assuming you know a topic better than someone whos dedicated their career studying it? its like someone from the english department trying to debate e=mc2 with albert einstein > like dude.... are you stupid? 

sighs.... but lucky there are still people that i like... =)